One Man Can do a Lot.

This blog is dedicated to my brother from another mother. I really appreciate your presence when you're here. Dayam man... We've been like those fo flats on a cadillac ever since the 7th grade. It's interesting that I see PANDA is about to separate and they're writing hella blogs about it xD. But I feel them tho. Thats nothing wrong with that, it just shows how much they love eachother that they want everyone in PANDA.. hell everybody on the internet to know how they feeling about the departure of their own. But this is about you my brother thats about to depart again.

It's interesting that we kept in touch for hella long and shit and stay strong with the communication. First you was with us for freshman year and only for a couple of months then you cut from Skyline. After hella confusion, you went to Fremont for the next three years. What was once seeing each other everyday turned into occasional visits to the house on the weekends. Later on, you told me that your family is about to move which I was already anticipating. But you flipped it on me when you told me that you was going to live without them and on your own. Then I remember I came over to your house on the welcoming party and I kinda walked in your roommates smoking session, but they was hella koo about it tho. This was when you also suprised me when you told me that you was a vegan. It was just overwhelming on me, but it was tight that you was doing yo thang so I was just hella proud that you getting yo shit and struting it proud.

Later on you couldn't handle the money situation any longer and that was when you decided to move with your Aunt in Nevada. I remember the last day you was with me that day, we laughed out ass off like we never did. Just watching those videos on youtube, yea.. wonderful memories. Even though I talked to my mom and she agreed that you could live with us, you wanted to go out there and expand your horizon a little bit. I respected that and you was off.

Interesting enough, you hit me up with a cell phone. BLUD a cell phone, something that me and you needed soo bad and you beat me to it. But that was hella tight, kept in touch while you was in Nevada. Everytime we talked, there was always a story to say, I gotta admit that our lives is nothing close to being boring. Some shit is always happening with us and we build theories around it. Hella months past and you gimme a call saying that you planning to come up here to visit. That was one fun ass week bruh, that stayed within my memory banks for life. I remember we was sweating like slaves in my room that one night and we watched that whackass movie lol.
Then you was off the next morning.

Later on you came up again for prom night, boy we was looking SPIFFY xD. I gotta admit you had your shit going. Not only that, you had it going with your date. That night was hella interesting, I made you go into robber status when we was playing hide in the dark for that quick min. That was like the last time I saw you until the next couple months that you told me that you was finna stay with me for a lil while till you go off to college.

Now it's about that time, you finna head out today again. It's going to be a lil while till I see you again. But it's koo tho, cuz we always been like this (crosses fingers). I always found it hella suprising that you stuck around with me and Le when we was smaller than you. But for some reason it just seemed that we had similar views and we had to keep it rolling with this caravan on this journey. You finna head off to Washington and Imma still be here in the Bay like always. But where ever you go, you always seem to show me a piece of where you are. So it's never really goodbye. It's another "I'll see you when I see you."

I can a lot more about you, like all the embarrassing times or of how you inspired me to change but that can wait another time :P.

Put your heart into yo fist bruh and Throw it to the Sky. I'll be right there with you with my fist in the Sky too and we stay Solidified to the end of time.

GL MY NIGGA!

Last night was interesting. I kicked it with PANDA and the whole band last night. I dressed up spiffy in my button up shirt. CPK was koo, good thing i didn't see that bitch waitress from last time. I sit at the opposite end and look at everybody enjoying each other. I sort realized how I don't really fit in with them. I don't think that they feel awkward around me, but for some reason I feel a little different around them; not myself. So I rather just stay quiet around them and ponder on my own thoughts for the time being. I'm glad that they invite me to these things, considering me and Le. It's just that I don't have this connection with them for some reason, like I'm on a whole different universe from them.

In the mist of all of the charades, she aimmed me.. and I completely forgot about that I had a conversation with her that day. It made me wonder if she was curious about me or was curious about us. I really have no idea how to respond to her. Do I try again or do I let it slide.

But in the middle of that Me, Le, Alan, and Alex was ghost riding his van in Alameda. That topped off my night. Yep.. interesting night.

Girl of my Dreams

It's hard to picture the girl of my dreams

When they're often portrayed as light skinned video vixens

In a fluttering white dress

Floating across clouds

Like it's the sun Jesus' revealing out

They're just dreams and girls are reality

Vixens are false reality while

Crazy bitches and Drama queens are as real as it gets..

And yet in the end, what the media has revealed to me

Was hard to believe

Because what my eyes conceived to me

Happened to be the girl of my dreams

She loves hip hop from the top notch MC's

To the bass dropping booty popping beats

Or soothing melodies

She loves are to the fullest extent

Photography, music, fine art, street art, even novel romance

She loves staying at home to chill and watch movies on the TV screen

And stay up to the crack of 8 just to finish a game of Monopoly

She loves to go to the beach and listen to the waves wrestle against the sea shore

Or stay locked in my arms to stay warm while the rain pours

She loves to eat anything from burritos, In-N-Out burgers, TGIF, to fine cuisine

Without even tripping about gaining a thing

And she loves my momma's cooking

She loves to talk, have fun and listen

Have a couple of bumps and fights here and there but make up in the end

She loves to make me happy when I'm sad or help me breathe when I'm stressed

And take my bullshit when I want to get things off my chest

She loves me for who I am and what I would be

And I could love her now to infinity

Looking back and to as far as I can see, you are the girl of my dream.

___________.(sign your name here if you wanna be my girl of my dreams ^^)

The Heat D:

Today was an interesting day. I remember waking up seeing the paramedics in my house. My bruh Escenthio was hella trippin in the morning. He was shaking profusely and he could hear his heart. So we had to get the abumlance here fassttt.

Like four hours later, I woke up and I walked into my room. The damn thang is filthy... but its my home so I walked through all the obstacles in the way to reach my computer. Yea it was a journey, I think I stepped on my Jabbawockeez shirt on the way. The sky should SMITE ME FOR THAT.

I go on the internet and check the usual AIM, Facebook, and email. Personally myspace died on me so its all about Facebook now. Then I check my usual photoshop websites to keeping my photoshop interlect fresh. I'm not a good photoshop, but a developing one and I gotta keep learning everyday.

Later on my mom got home with the groceries. She got cereal with no milk.... how come this always happens to me. I think some kind of diety from above is torturing me. If I have milk, I never have cereal. =.= I love cereal. But yea, I had to go outside to get the groceries. This is when I discover that the sun farted. It was like we just teleported to the Mohave. It was blazing outside. It was like only 12.. damn global warming

Later on, my bruh Hai swooped Escenthio up from the hospital and then came by my house to get me and Le. When we got to his car we had to let it air out cuz it felt like he was cooking hell in there. It was like Satan sneezed in there and it caught on fire in there. We headed towards the Embarcadero to check out the Toy and Collectibles Expo. Note it felt like we was riding in a slave ship on our way there because Hai can't roll down his windows. Just imagine the torture.. Moving on.

At the expo they have some really nice toys, especially hella transformers. Transformers have always been one of those things I love fuckin with when I was a kid tho. I sorta remember some of their names like Ratitat and that one that was have hawk and wolf. Then I remember seeing thing big headed Ironman toy thing that looked hella wet. Then we left to Borders cuz we couldn't stand the heat anymore. After reading books we went to go to pick up Hai's gf.

After that Hai dropped us off at my house. I called my other patnah Jeri up to see if he wanted to go shoot some pool. He never got back to me. So I spent my time working out at home. But what sucked was feeling my stomach erupting on the inside. Muddbut attacked me silently. I was about to go to the bathroom until Escenthio came out with my phone. My mentor Somneng called because eariler that day I called her to talk about paperwork. What was scorching through my mind was, hit the toilet up! So I tried to end the conversation with Somneng as quick as possible. When it finished, I dashed to the toilet and blew it up..

Now I'm just writing my blog here, thinkin about the next thing that I'm goin to write about. I don't know really.. Maybe something about how I feel at the moment. Currently whats going on through my head now is I feel that I really can't get a break.. I'm between a rock and a hard place, I also want certain things in my life that seems to be impossible at the moment. I may be writing about blogs of how my day went, but it's that doubt that there's actually anybody that's thinkin about me and they wanna see what are goin on in these blogs. So I wanna see how this thing goes, but I know for sure one thing is, this blog spot is going to be where Ima hold my poems at and pieces.